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I am a below knee amputee. More importantly, I am also Mommy to two boys, a very active 10 year old (Robby) and an mischievous toddler (Timmy). I have learned that being a parent with a disability can create some unusual and sometimes humorous situations. This blogger is available for hire! Let's talk and learn how a blog can expand your business.

Wednesday, October 21, 2020

Feeling Better

Monday night's phantom pain led to an extremely frustrating Tuesday. Thanks to copious amounts of coffee, I managed to get through Circle Time and virtual craft class. After Timmy was done with his classes I started my meetings and projects for the day. By the time the sun went down I was ready for bed.

Even though I was tired, I took advantage of the beautiful weather by going for a long bike ride with Robby and Timmy. We also hunted for leaves for a future rubbing project and played on the swing set. I purposely left my phone inside when we went out for "recess."  I am learning that it is as important for me to disconnect as it is for the kids.

 After a good night sleep, I'm feeling better and more human today. It is amazing how a few hours of solid sleep can completely change my mood and perspective. My to-do list is no shorter, but I am feeling ready to tackle anything that comes my way.

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

Phantom Pain Returns

Phantom pain decided to pay a visit last night. As is usual to its arrival, I had no warning or idea that my night was going to be miserable. Around 3 AM I woke up with the sadistic stinging in my limb, heralding the arrival of my unwelcome midnight visitor.

I tossed and turned for the rest of the night, desperate to find a position that would provide relief. I was moderately successful for 30-45 minutes at a time, but the pain always returned. Needless to say, I was miserable and this morning I am dragging.

I suspect that it will be a multiple cups of coffee morning to keep me going. I didn't sleep well, and our schedule is packed. I wish I could take a nap, but with both kiddos virtually schooling, it just isn't possible. Instead I will rely upon caffeine and adrenaline to keep me moving.

Have I mentioned how much I hate phantom pain?

Monday, October 19, 2020


 After another stressful and chaotic week, I took the opportunity to unplug and completely decompress over the weekend. Our weather was gorgeous. The air was crisp and it smelled like autumn. The boys and I went for several long bike rides through the neighborhood, played in the yard and just enjoyed the fresh air and sunshine. We didn't really do anything exciting, but sometimes not being productive is perfect.

Being outside this weekend was good for my soul. I think I have been so hyper focused on work and school that I have forgotten to relax and enjoy the moment. This week, I am going to add mandatory recess to our day. We all need to spend more time relaxing and playing outside, especially before the weather begins to turn. 

I suspect that a little outdoor recreation will benefit all of us.


Friday, October 16, 2020


 Yesterday was an exciting one in the Chenoweth Virtual School. Timmy, learning about early colonial life, discovered making butter. He was absolutely amazed that a little bit of a cream in a jar will transform into butter when shaken. I made bread with dinner and we all gobbled up his "magic butter" as we ate. He smiled from ear-to-ear as he watched us enjoy his creation.

After discovering that butter is something that can be made, Hamlet declared that we are never buying butter again. He must have meant what he said, because when I was busy on a conference call he emptied all of the butter into our trash can. I discovered his efforts when I was cooking dinner and opened the lid of the trash can to throw away some scraps. Laying right on top were 15 sticks of butter, removed from their boxes and discarded. 

Obviously, I rescued the butter. (It wasn't soiled and was laying on top of some old papers, so I'm not worried about contamination.) I appreciate Timmy's enthusiasm, but he doesn't understand the cost value of buying butter over churning his own. 

It's safe to say that we will be making butter again.

Thursday, October 15, 2020


As I hoped, my niece and nephew had a successful first day at their new schools.  All three became lost, disoriented and confused. But all three managed to get through the day, arrived back home with smiles on their faces and stories of new friends. I know that going to a new school is difficult. I am so proud of all of them!

Today is a return to virtual learning for everybody. The cousins return to the physical classroom next Monday. They are scheduled for in-person learning every Monday and Wednesday, or until the pandemic risk changes. Timmy and Robby will continue virtual learning for the entire year, although I'm optimistic that I will be able to enroll Timmy for in-person activities this Spring. Time will tell.

Timmy and I are (slowly) finding our groove with virtual learning. He no longer cries or complains when it is time for class. He is starting to thoroughly enjoy Circle Time, although the hour still fills me with angst as I am never quite sure what will pop out of his mouth.

Earlier this week he was learning about the sh blend. His teacher asked every student to come up with a word with the sh sound, and then use the word in a sentence. Timmy, very proud of himself, immediately leaned over to me and said, "shoe starts with the sh sound." 

Unfortunately, either another classmate had the same idea or overheard him. She was called on before Timmy, and used the word shoe. I saw the wash of disappointment and the wheels immediately started turning as he tried to think of a new word. True to our luck, his teacher called on him next.

Without much thought, Timmy said, "Shithead starts with sh. Sometimes my brober calls me a little shithead." I had to walk to the kitchen to keep from laughing. 

Virtual schooling is hectic, frustrating and exhausting. But it also has moments where all I can do is smile and move on.

Wednesday, October 14, 2020

 This is a big day in my Mom's house. Today my niece and nephew embark on their first in-person day at their new public schools. It's scary going to a new school, but I know that they are up for the challenge. Compared to the restrictive private school that they have attended, public school is going to be full of amazing opportunities and experiences.  

I wish I was there this morning, to watch them get ready and to try to quell last minute nerves. Unfortunately they will have to settle with a cheerleader from a distance, rooting them on and waiting to hear an update as soon as they get home. Until I get to talk to them later this afternoon, I am sure I will continue to be a bundle of nervous energy for them.

While the cousins are embarking on a new adventure, Robby and Timmy will continue with our typical school schedule. Robby has a history lecture course that monopolizes most of his morning. Timmy will be occupied with circle time, crafts and his various worksheet assignments. I will be busy trying to juggle everybody's activities as well as my own responsibilities. These past few weeks have been, without a doubt, the most hectic of my life.

Tuesday, October 13, 2020

Tuesday Fun

 After at least a week of struggling, last night I finally slept soundly. I feel refreshed and ready to take on the world this morning. It's amazing how a few solid hours of rest can absolutely transform my perspective on the day! The weather is dreary and the air is heavy with fog, but I feel happy and optimistic. 

Today will be busy, so I'm glad I was able to sleep. Timmy has three Zoom classes, two of which involve a craft. He is becoming increasingly independent with his classes but he still requires assistance for many of the crafts. He thoroughly enjoys his crafts though, so the fact that he doesn't complain or resist makes the time go quickly.

Tuesdays are the only day of the week that Robby has open on his schedule. He has no appointments, activities or classes scheduled. Instead of being pulled away by extracurricular endeavors, Tuesdays are typically spent getting caught up (and sometimes ahead) on all of his schoolwork. He will be nearly as busy as Timmy, although I doubt he will be as chipper and excited about the activities.