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I am a below knee amputee. More importantly, I am also Mommy to two boys, a very active 10 year old (Robby) and an mischievous toddler (Timmy). I have learned that being a parent with a disability can create some unusual and sometimes humorous situations. This blogger is available for hire! Let's talk and learn how a blog can expand your business.

Friday, May 04, 2018

Heading Home

I'm packing up and heading home. After a difficult few days, it will be nice to get on the plane. I really need hugs and cuddles from my boys!  I think this weekend I'm going to work on relaxing and re-centering. Hopefully some distance and time will provide some enlightenment.

Thursday, May 03, 2018

Knocked Down

Yesterday morning I woke up and, for whatever reason, I started thinking about my Dad. On a whim I decided to walk to the Krispy Kreme across the street and bring donuts to the office. (My Dad always encouraged me to be the employee who brought treats to the office, and following through on his advice made me feel like I was somehow honoring him.)

My meetings were long and difficult, leaving me feeling frustrated and insecure. I felt like Timmy after he builds an impressive block tower only to watch it be knocked to the ground. Unlike Timmy, I didn't throw a tantrum and break down into tears. (Okay, I did cry but it wasn't in public so it doesn't count.)  Instead I felt myself circling in and shutting down. My reaction wasn't the best, but I was able to temper my emotions in public so I consider my coping mechanism a success.

It's strange. I woke up thinking about my Dad and I went to bed missing him even more. All afternoon I found myself  wanting to pick up the phone, to unload my day and to seek his insights and advice. I had no doubt that he would have been able to help navigate me through my next steps.

His absence felt profound and intensified my deflated mood. By the time I pulled the covers over my head I wanted to transform into Dorothy, click my heels and float home. Thankfully it didn't take long for me to fall asleep.

My dreams were wonky, reflecting my emotions from the day. At one point I had a strong dream memory of a conversation I had with my Dad when I was in graduate school. I woke up feeling secure in my plan. I may not have been able to pick up the phone to talk to my Dad, but I think he already told me what to do in this situation.

My tower was knocked over, but I have a plan to rebuild. Thanks Dad! 

Wednesday, May 02, 2018

Meetings

Yesterday was busy but incredibly productive. Although I hate leaving my family to travel for work, sometimes it is necessary to get things hammered out. Sometimes face-to-face meetings just can't be replicated with technology.

After work I went back to the hotel to relax. Because I am in a safer section of town, I felt comfortable venturing out to explore. I walked along the waterfront, strolled through some touristy shops and discovered the Ghiradelli chocolate store as I was looking for dinner. Since I had a long day and had worked through lunch, I felt comfortable ordering a brownie sundae for dinner.  (Yum!) 

It was so nice to be able to get out of buildings and to just walk. It has been a long time since I have gone anywhere by myself. Usually I have Timmy in tow, so being able to go into small trinket shops without keeping a death grip on a curious toddler was a novelty. 

I walked around for about an hour before heading back to the hotel. Still jet lagged from the trip, I went to bed early. Today is another day filled with long meetings, so another trip to the sundae store might be in my future. Perhaps the lure of the treat will help push me through the frustrations that come from long meetings.

Tuesday, May 01, 2018

San Francisco

Good morning from San Francisco!

My flight was long, uneventful and relaxing. With everybody pulling me in so many directions, it occurred to me that being tethered into a plane by myself is my only opportunity to binge watch movies. I took full advantage of the isolation by watching Wonder Woman and a few other flicks. (I have also decided that I want to be Wonder Woman when I grow up!)

I'm glad that I relaxed last night on the flight because today is going to be busy. I don't travel to the LIM Headquarters often, but when I do I need to make the most of my opportunity. From formal meetings to a slew of working sessions, my schedule is filled.  

Hopefully I'll make it back to the hotel with enough time to walk around a little bit. I'm in a touristy area, and I feel safe exploring. (Because of the location at the hotel during my last few visits, I didn't feel save exploring the local community. I pretty much locked myself in the room each night until I was forced to leave for work again in the morning.) This hotel is in a calmer area, more geared for tourists. 

Wish me luck, and have a great day!

Monday, April 30, 2018

Aquarium Fun

Saturday morning Scott and I packed up the boys and headed off on a quick family getaway. To the delight of boys we were going to the Baltimore Aquarium. To the chagrin of Robby, I insisted that he wear the "Brother of the Birthday Boy" shirt during our adventure. When he saw everybody else sporting their Thomas the Train shirt, he recognized that refusing was a losing battle and quickly relented. 

After we checked into our hotel we immediately headed to the aquarium. Both Robby and Timmy loved looking at all of the colorful marine displays. As expected, they were particularly taken with Calypso, the amputee sea turtle. Calypso was Robby's introduction to sea turtles and will always hold a special place in my heart. He is the turtle that started him on his path.

When we were getting ready to leave the aquarium the boys pulled us into the gift shop. (I have learned to hate most gift shops, but this particular one is nice.) Timmy my carefully deliberated and eventually chose an aquarium themed truck. Robby had no hesitation decided what he wanted to purchase. After years of visiting Calypso, they have finally manufactured him in plush form. He nearly squealed when he picked up the amputee sea turtle plush animal. I was nearly as excited and, without even peeking at the price tag, agreed that he needed to come home with us.  

After unloading our treasures into our hotel room we headed to the swimming pool.  Timmy was eager to practice his swim skills and to show off for his Daddy. Robby was content splashing and playing in the water. I thoroughly enjoyed playing with both kids in the pool, happy watching their smiles and relishing in the brief moments where they were actually playing together.