Pain

 The wild fluctuations in weather have caused my 'not-so-phantom' pain to flare. Sleeping has become elusive as my leg morphs into a raging cricket at night, hopping and kicking with each zap of pain. Needless to say, I'm not planning on tackling any massive projects today. As soon as Timmy logs into school, I'm going to try to take a nap.  Between the plp and my general anxiety and hot flashes, the past few days have been miserable. 

I am hoping to nap and kick the pain to the curb soon because this weekend we have a big FlexyFriends event. We are heading to our first 'ComicCon" of the year. Fingers crossed we do well! Between the layoffs and the tariffs, we are not sure what to expect. 

Tomorrow we are heading down to set up and being mobile would be very appreciated by all.

Rainy Day Pain

 Yesterday was rainy and cold. My beautiful daffodils looked miserable as they were pelted into the ground by the relentless rain. The icky weather will continue through today before it clears to just cold temperatures for the rest of the week. Where is Spring? It feels like the whole world is going crazy!

I wouldn't mind the rainy weather if it didn't bring miserable phantom pain along. My leg has been miserable for the past two days. The twitching and zapping has been exhausting because it becomes most active as I try to sleep. I've developed quite a few tricks over the decades to help, but nothing takes it away completely. I'm forced to just ride it out until it vanishes as quickly as it arrived.

Here's to clearer skies and less pain for everybody. (And maybe a rise in the stock market too!)

Never the Same

 The anniversary of Lt. Ofc. John Ellen murdering my brother was difficult. We all continue to struggle with not only his absence but the way in which he was so violently removed from our world. I know I will never be the same, and I have seen the physical changes it has carved into my mom. The mom and nana that we all knew was shattered on April 3 and she will never be the same. 

I have so much more to say but the tears are starting to fall.  Maybe I'll be able to go into it more tomorrow.  Thank you for your patience as I work through my crazy life.