Today is the big day! It still feels surreal that I'm being included in a Discovery Channel show. My story feels so inadequate compared to those whom I have met. Right now I suppose I'm just scared, worried that I'll let everybody down. In reality, I am suffering from nothing more than normal stage fright.
I want to portray amputees in a realistic light. Although our issues are unique, I don't want to participate in a show that simply produces pity. The thought of being part of a sideshow style production makes me shudder.
My goals for this project are to educate and, ultimately, to help. I am hopeful that through demonstrating what it is truly like living with an amputation, new amputees may find comfort and research into remedying many obstacles will increase.
I am so thankful and happy that Scott was able to adjust his work schedule to accompany Robby and me on this adventure. Yesterday we spent the afternoon playing in the hotel pool with Robby. We had a great time laughing and splashing. What a fantastic way to release my jitters!
It is comforting having him close to offer encouragement and an endless supply of hugs. I'm also relieved that he will be able to watch Robby when I am being interviewed. After the antics of Robby Rotten in Tampa, I was apprehensive about taking him 'to work' with me again. Knowing that Robby is well taken care of has taken a huge worry off my mind.
This is a once in a lifetime opportunity, and I don't want to miss a moment because of my fears. I want to show that amputees, as a population, possess a strength to persevere and to overcome. I don't want to portray us as timid, nervous and meek. I'm going to smile, to communicate effectively and try to make everybody proud. Wish me luck!