Swinging

 Scott and I spent Saturday morning assembling a 10-foot high swing set, courtesy of Timmy's Nana. My mother has an established history of gifting extraordinarily heavy items to my boys, so when a 250 lb box showed up on my driveway, I didn't need to look for a card. Timmy has been patiently waiting for his swing set to be assembled, and Saturday morning was the perfect day. 

With temperatures in the low 70s and no rain for the day, Scott and I set out to take full advantage of the assembly opportunity. Did we have to redo every step at least once because we made a mistake? Absolutely. Despite our best efforts, we were constantly disassembling and redoing steps. Even with our frustratingly frequent mistakes, assembly did not take as long as we feared. 

After 2 hours, the swing set was done and ready to be placed in the yard.  Timmy was ecstatic when he saw it in the driveway, and before I knew it he was helping Scott carrying it up the hill. By mid afternoon Timmy was happily swinging. According to him, it is the best thing we have done to the house since we moved in. 

I have to say, I agree.  Thank you Mom!  You knew just what he needed.

 

TGIF

 I'm happy it is Friday!

The week after a break is always difficult. It is harder to wake up in the morning and the days feel slightly longer when you try to resume your pre-vacation schedule. The heat has not helped quell my fatigue. While I appreciate the warmer temperatures, Mother Nature's most recent heat flash has brought temperatures in the 90s. Adjusting to the heat as well as returning to the work schedule has left me completely wiped out.

I already know that I'm going to have a difficult time navigating the heat in this current prosthetic set-up. My leg was slipping out of the socket yesterday and I felt my remaining muscle struggling to hold on with each step. I'm spraying my limb down with antiperspirant this morning in the hopes of calming the sweat reaction, but I know that I am going to need a more aggressive approach. 

This socket simply doesn't fit, and my system of make-shift pads and socks becomes compromised when heat is added to the mix.  I am really hoping that I can hold on until June, when the school year ends and I can start the process for a new leg. 

Happier

 The temperatures are rising and there is no doubt that Spring has sprung. I am loving spending the hours outside with my students, exploring neighborhoods and the school campus. After being indoors throughout the winter, it is nice to be working outside again. The minutes pass so much quicker in the fresh air and sunshine!

As the temperatures are rising, I find myself struggling with my wardrobe. I will not wear shorts to work, but I need to find lighter weight pants or capris. The heavy denim pants that I have been wearing are becoming very hot throughout the day. It is a strange situation because I don't know if I just should stay on trend and keep with longer pants that are lighter in weight, or do I just go with capris and let it known that I'm an amputee.

At this point, only a few select individuals know that I am living with prosthesis. It is kind of fun to be walking with a 'secret,' but perhaps it is time to just reveal and be comfortable. I was initially concerned about being able to make my own impression. The school year is almost done, so I believe that goal has been achieved. Before the end of the month, I will host my own personal celebration of limb loss awareness month by revealing my prosthesis at work. It should be fun! 

In the meantime, we are settling into the end of the school year with our eyes on summer. Robby has two more weeks of classes before finals. The rest of us have work until the end of May and Timmy continues for another week or two beyond that. Before I know it, we will all be home and waking up late on lazy summer mornings! It has been another year of adjustments and I cannot wait to just totally unwind.

 

Better Day

 I'm not going to lie, yesterday was rough. Hopefully today will be better.

Although it was a difficult day, it was an absolutely beautiful evening. Timmy, recognizing that I was upset, took it upon himself to prep the firepit. After it was lit he invited me to come outside to enjoy it because "even the worst days end better when you have a firepit."

He wasn't wrong. There was something soothing about just sitting next to the firepit and letting my mind unwind. I realized that I have been taking unprofessional exchanges personally. In reality, these interactions are simply a reflection of a different professional code of conduct which is probably regionally based.  The rules are supposed to be the same yet I often feel as if I am trying to learn an entirely different game. 

As this contract winds down with the school year I am starting to open myself up to new adventures. I am not sure what I am going to do next school year. The prospect of starting over feels overwhelming but I am reassured by the knowledge that I have already done it several times. 

Here's hoping that today is a better day. Wish me luck as I struggle to keep my face calm and my voice quiet. 

Rough start

 I was told to be clear and concise.

Is "bite me" clear enough?  It's been a rough start to the week.... 

I'm back

 My apologies for not posting last week. Because we were on Spring Break, I wanted to disconnect and just enjoy the time with the family so I opted to avoid the computer. I realize, in retrospect, that I should have posted my intentions. If you are still with me, I thank you!

My week off-line was just what my mind and heart needed to recenter and get ready for the weeks ahead. I spent the beginning of my week off by hanging out with Scott and Timmy (when he wasn't in school).  On Wednesday I headed up to visit my Mom and to accompany her to a doctor's appointment. While I was in PA my very dearest friend made to trip to hang out with me at my Mom's. It was so wonderful to have some friend time! I have missed those types of connections, especially since moving to WV.

Friday afternoon I packed up and headed back home for the remainder of our break. I spent the weekend deep cleaning the house. It hasn't looked this clean since we moved in, but I'm not overly optimistic that it will remain this way. I'm going to try to enjoy it while I can.

Today is back to work for everybody.  It is going to be hot. Wish me luck!

Easter

 Our Easter was uneventful but enjoyable. On Saturday night our yard was 'egged' as part of a local fundraiser.  Timmy (with an obedient Robby in tow) spent an hour running around the yard with flashlights, trying to locate each egg before the rain rolled into the area. Although the egg hunt was supposed to occur during daylight, the nighttime search was perfect fun. I loved hearing Timmy squeal with egg greedy delight with each plastic discovery.

The majority of Sunday was spent in the kitchen, working on a dinner that highlighted a favorite side from each family member. It took me 4.5 hours and three loads of dishes to prepare a meal that took about 20 minutes to consume. After dinner I packed up all the leftovers for Robby and we returned him to his dorm to finish out the school year.

This week I'm off, which brings me so much relief and happiness. My goodness I need a break! I'm looking forward to days of quiet time where I have few to no demands placed upon me.  Hopefully my dreams manifest into reality, because I suspect I'll be working around the house and finishing every project that has been put off.