The past week has not been my best. The swarm encounter continues to wreak havoc on my body by making me feel toxic, ugly, and itchy nearly all the time. To add insult to injury, the weather has been atrocious with seemingly nonstop rain, humidity, and dark skies.
the hives on the bend of my knee, courtesy of a particularly sadistic
yellow jacket, and the weather, my leg has been hurting. Every morning I
wake up and struggle to fit into my socket because of the swelling.
Throughout the day I constantly have to stop my activity so that I can
release the pressure within my prosthesis because the tissue feels
squished and cramped. I hate having to make adjustments to my schedule
because of my amputation!
Phantom pain, which is rarely
an issue, has been keeping me up at night. My big toe feels like it is
being twisted in a vice while the toenail is being pulled off. It is not a comfortable sensation!
My leg has
been kicking uncontrollably as I lie down to go to sleep. The nerves are
so angry from being compressed in a tight socket that the stinging
sensation is relentless. If I close my eyes I have flashbacks of being
For the first time in a long while, I have actually felt disabled. I
haven't been able to be the kind of Mom that I want to be because of
the discomfort. I can accept not having a foot and using a prosthesis to
walk, but I'll never get used to limiting my activities because of it!
has been a trooper. He's been content shooting suction cup arrows at
the sliding glass door and watching Super Mario videos on YouTube. He is
now at an age where he understands when I explain that I am having
trouble walking. He has been bringing me cups of ice water, Hershey
Kisses, and lots of extra kisses to make the "ouchies" go away.
weekend the weather is supposed to clear and (hopefully) the sun will
shine again. As soon as the humidity dries up, I know that my limb will
return to its normal size. Right now, I'm hoping that the song is right
and that the sun really will come up tomorrow- I'm ready for this week
to be over!