Ready or Not

 Ready or not, 2024 is almost here.  

2023 was one of easing into the change.  It hasn't been the easiest of years but I am going to embrace the positive. Considering that 2024 will promptly take the that was teased in 2023 change and flog me into next December, this past year has been a breeze. 

2024 has been building to be one of huge transitions for our family and I'm terrified. I wish I could say that I'm excited about everything the next 12 months holds and that it will pose the adventure of my life. In reality, the anxiety heralding the changes coming with the new calendar have been keeping me awake for months. 

Ready or not, the seconds are going to continue to countdown to a new year. It will surely be memorable. I'm just hoping it is also manageable!

Bedroom Redo

 Timmy's beloved bunk bed with slide met with an unfortunate fate when the supports holding the slats into place splintered from the frame. We were extremely lucky that the bed did not collapse while Timmy was in it. We were hoping to wait until we moved to upgrade Timmy's furniture but we were forced to speed up our timeline. 

Yesterday Scott and I worked nonstop in Timmy's room. We disassembled the old bed while the boys hauled the pieces out. After the old bed was removed we set out to assemble the new one. The size and weight of the box forced us to unbox outside. The boys ferried the pieces and parts up the stairs and into Timmy's room where I frantically tried to keep everything organized. 

The bed, a bunk bed with loft combo, was a beast to assemble. Scott and I have been assembling furniture from a box together for nearly 25 years. We have become adept at working together to get the job done without creating or harboring hard feelings. Before we start any project we always hug, say I love yous and offer no hard feelings for anything that might be said or done during the assembly. No matter how difficult the assembly process, and we have tackled some projects for which we were woefully ill equipped,  we will not hold onto the anger when we are done. 

Scott and I are good at working together but, unfortunately, neither of us are terribly talented at visualization or understanding minimalist directions. We always put pieces together incorrectly, forcing us to disassemble and reassemble numerous times. Yesterday was no exception, although we felt victorious that we only had to disassemble twice and we only have one 'construction personalization' one the bed. (A construction personalization refers to the situations where we have to improvise with a different screw or piece to make the parts fit together.

Nearly five hours after we started, Scott and I emerged from Timmy's room unscathed. The new bed was upright and sturdy, delighting Timmy. He immediately climbed to the top and surveyed the new view. The project was a beast but his smile made it worth the effort!

Best Present

Yesterday morning our family received what we have collectively decided to be the best Christmas present of the year. Timmy's wiggly front tooth, the one that has been hanging on and frustrating his eating for over a year despite the many efforts to ease it out, finally fell out in the middle of the night. Timmy took a sword to the tooth last summer which pushed it sideways and made it loose. We assumed it would fall out soon but it remained in an awkward position and wiggly state. We were three weeks away from an oral surgeon removing the crushed and stubborn tooth. Thankfully nature, and biting into a piece of prime rib for dinner, took care of the situation.

Liberated from the frustrating tooth, we celebrated by taking Timmy to McDonald's for lunch. He was thrilled to be able to bite into the cheeseburger without the "tooth crunch."  Talk about a Christmas miracle!

Merry Christmas!

 Another Christmas has come and gone. This season has been one of modifying traditions and going with the flow. I should not have been surprised by the unexpected curve ball courtesy of Covid. My nephew came down with Covid, exposing the entire household in Pennsylvania. Because of the recent and active exposure, my Mom and sister were not able to visit us for Christmas. Yet again we were forced to celebrate separately because of Covid.

Despite the pivot from large family feast to intimate gathering, Christmas was a success. Both boys were delighted with their surprises. I was worried but it seems that Santa magic has survived another year. Timmy was delighted with his presents and seemed firm in his resolve that they were provided by Santa. 

Robby transitioned from Believer to Magic Maker Apprentice several years ago. This year he was responsible for hiding Timmy's presents and assembling his stocking. He took his responsibilities seriously and knocked it out of the park! I was so proud when I realized that Robby even ate the cookie and disposed of most of the milk.

This week everybody is on vacation (except for me). I am not anticipating a relaxing week between Christmas and New Year but I am hoping to have some fun. Christmas may be over, but there is still a lot of time to celebrate!

 

Winter Solstice

 Ready or not, Christmas is almost here!

I am definitely leaning towards the "not ready" side of holiday preparations but I am optimistic (perhaps overly) that everything will come together soon. Today is Scott's last day of work before the break. This year he is going several days longer than he has in previous years. Having him working into Christmas week is different for us and it is wreaking havoc with my prep and spirit.  

In addition to being Scott's final day of work before break, it is also Winter Solstice. Every Winter Solstice I can't help but smile as I remember a solstice ceremony my Mom and I attended decades ago. I was in college and I didn't know anybody else in attendance, yet my relative anonymity did little to quell the embarrassment I felt as I watched my mother whip some bongos out of her ginormous purse so that she could drum along with the chanting. 

I do not embarrass easily but I remember wanting to shrink into the wall as I watched my mom happily tapping along on her bongos. (The fact that she just happened to have bongos is a topic for a different blog.) I'm not sure why I was so embarrassed because I remember there were many happy bongo players at the ceremony. There was something about seeing my own mother participating with such zeal that melted my late teen confidence. 

Decades have passed since the bongo experience, yet it still brings a smile to my face. I think every kid needs an experience of being absolutely humiliated by their parents actions- even if the parents are not doing anything overtly egregious. The Winter Solstice Ceremony was mine.

Magic

 I have to agree with Timmy. The week before Christmas takes a really long time! Needless to say, he is a tinge excited about Christmas this year. I look around my house and I feel woefully unprepared for the holiday. My decorating efforts could be interpreted as incomplete, but I'm going to frame it as minimalist. Regardless of the amount of garland I have strung (or kept in the boxes), my kids are feeling festive so that is all that matters. 

Today we are going to take our annual trip to visit Santa. Timmy, whom I suspect is a nonbeliever desperate to keep believing, dutifully made a list to deliver to Santa. I am sad that he isn't 100% convinced in the "magic" of Santa, but I am going to do my best to keep him guessing. I'm hoping that Robby may be able to help keep Santa alive for another year.  

Weekend Wrap-Up

 This past weekend flew by in a moment but I know that I will remember it for years to come. Robby and I went to see Trans-Siberian Orchestra's Christmas show on Friday evening. Traditionally we have gone to see The Nutcracker, but this year we decided to switch things up and to try a new experience with TSO. We had a great time but I am not certain that TSO will become part of our annual tradition.

The first portion of the show was themed on a Christmas Eve story. This left Robby and me, along with seemingly most of the audience, confused and unimpressed. Thankfully the story portion only lasted for about an hour, allowing the orchestra another hour to redeem the show. The second portion of the performance was AMAZING! Between the songs, the energy, the lasers and the fire, we were thoroughly entertained. 

While I was at the show with Robby, Timmy was busy holiday shopping with my sister. He loves shopping for people and he was excited to find surprises with his Aunt. She even surprised him with a trip to Dave and Busters to play games so, for him, it was the perfect holiday adventure.  

On Saturday I met my friend for an afternoon of shopping and just hanging out. It has been a really long time since I've gone shopping with a friend. I certainly haven't been shopping with anybody since the pandemic. I didn't realize how much I missed it until I was doing it again.

Because of the rain and wind we packed up and came home yesterday morning. Today begins the last work week before the holiday. Eeeek. It's hard to believe that Christmas is so close!

TSO

 As I have mentioned previously, this holiday season is one of modifications and changes to traditions. Robby and I have seen The Nutcracker performed at George Mason University for the past decade and we have thoroughly enjoyed the shows. After last year's performance, which honestly was lackluster since the Russian ballerinas have been banned entrance, we decided to switch things up with a new experience. This year, instead of going to see The Nutcracker, we are going to the Trans-Siberian Orchestra Christmas performance tonight.

Today I will pick up Robby from school and head to Pennsylvania. Because the concert is in Hershey I decided to combine the it with a weekend visit with my Mom. Tonight while Robby and I are rocking out to TSO, Timmy will be gorging on popcorn while watching Grinch with my Mom. I have a feeling that both of my boys will be living their best lives tonight.

Have a great weekend!  I'll post photos from the show this weekend.

Holiday Changes

 Ready or not, winter has arrived. The temperatures plummeted and brought the remaining leaves to the ground. The fireplace has been going full blast for several days which has created a cozy mood in the house. It is easier to feel festive when the fireplace is crackling and popping. 

We have less than two weeks until Christmas and we are not ready. I look around the house and I feel overwhelmed by the clutter (the boxes of books Robby was gifted from his teacher) and underwhelmed by my decorating efforts. This year my decorations are minimal. I didn't do anything outside and inside we only have the Christmas tree and a few treasured items on display. Everything else I am keeping in storage until we move. 

I feel guilty for not going overboard for the holiday this year. Between work, school and selling FlexyFriends, I just haven't had the time or the motivation to invest in developing the holiday spirit. Instead of trying to do everything, this year I'm only going to focus on what we truly enjoy and value. 

Although we haven't done a lot of decorating I have been trying to increase my baking output. Given the choice, everybody in my family would prefer a cookie over another carefully placed trinket. It may not look a lot like Christmas, but it is certainly smelling like it!

Mom Fail

My aspirations of having an orderly and organized week were shot out of the water yesterday morning. Friend, who had been scratching furiously throughout the night, needed to go to the vet because I suspected he had another ear infection. As I made the call for the appointment I ran through my schedule for the day trying to figure out what could be bumped and how to make everything fit. I eagerly accepted the appointment offered, immediately deciding that Robby could go to school in an Uber.

I went about my morning until it was appointment time. Before leaving the house I reminded Robby to keep him phone next to him because I would be sending the Uber to pick him up. Timed precisely for an 11 AM school drop-off I confidently ordered the Uber while waiting for the vet to see Friend. After ordering the Uber I remember feeling like an accomplished schedule juggler. 

As suspected, Friend has an ear infection. He was treated and we came home with enough time for me to send a few emails before I needed to head out to pick up Robby from school. Fast forward 20 minutes and I was in the car rocking out to Christmas songs and feeling extremely organized. 

It was only 11:45 and I was pulling into the school parking lot when I suddenly remembered that his class runs from 12-1, not from 11-12. Not only was I an hour early, but I paid an Uber to drive Robby to school so that he could sit and wait for over an hour for his class. 

Talk about a Mom Fail!

Rest Day

 Saturday morning Robby and I headed back to the mall with a trunk full of FlexyFriends. We have done this a few times now and are becoming faster at setting up the little pop-up store. The mall wasn't as busy as we anticipated, especially considering it is only three weeks before Christmas, but business was brisk and everybody was nice. We sold out in the early evening which allowed us to pack up and take Sunday off.

Sunday was my first day off in a month. I had planned on driving to my Mom's house for the night but the constant rain coupled with the wind and my own fatigue was enough to keep me home. Instead of visiting I spent the day taking a long nap on the couch, baking Christmas cookies with the boys and finishing decorating the tree and the house. It was a fantastic day and exactly what I needed to regain both my strength and my holiday spirit!

Instead of going to my Mom's yesterday we decided that the boys and I would visit this coming weekend. It feels like the stars aligned because I was able to secure tickets to see Trans-Siberian Orchestra with Robby. We have been going to see the Nutcracker together for nearly a decade but we decided it would be fun to switch it up this year. He requested TSO and I was thrilled when I realized that they are playing near my Mom next Friday! 

Talk about serendipity.

Hanukah

 HAPPY HANUKAH!

We are not a religious family but we do try to maintain non-secular and secular family traditions. Each year I feel connected with my Dad and his ancestors when we light the family menorah. I feel like it is my small way of saying hello and we still remember to everybody from my Dad's side of the family who has died. I understand that is not the meaning of Hanukah, but I think the sense of connection is universal. 

After we lit the menorah the boys helped me decorate our Christmas tree before making a list of cookies that need to be baked in the coming weeks. They are certainly going to be keeping me busy for the next few weeks! It turns out that both boys prefer different cookies and that their culinary preferences rarely overlap. 

Baking is going to have to wait because this weekend we are returning to the Francis Scott Key Mall to sell FlexyFriends. Our stock is low after the Craft Fair sell-out but we are printing furiously to try to fill the table. If you are in the area, stop by and say hello! 

 

No More Lincoln Beard

 I agreed to Robby's "no shave November" initiative with the caveat that he get a proper haircut and shave at the beginning of December. I have never been a fan of facial hair but I try to allow the boys dominion over their own appearances. With very few exceptions I will allow them to dress and groom to their preferences. Although Robby likes the scraggly look he had finally reached the place where it was unruly and difficult for him to manage. I took advantage of the lack of family activities and Robby's willingness to shave to take the boys to the barber for their holiday haircuts. 

Timmy and Robby hopped onto the barber chairs at the same time. By the time Timmy was done Robby's hair was still being sectioned by the barber. During the time that Robby was getting his hair cut and his face shaved the other barber managed to complete the haircuts and complete the transactions for five separate customers. Needless to say, my little Koopa was more akin to a woolly mammoth when he walked into the barbershop.

It took the barber 2 hours to buzz, cut, snip and shave the hair away. By the time his makeover was finished Robby looked like a completely different person. I feel like I have my little boy back! (At least until he starts to grow out his beard again.)

Knock Out Chicken

Robby has never been a rough and tumble kid. As a young child he abandoned riding his bicycle after a fall because "if I was meant to ride I would have been born with wheels instead of feet." It took five years to convince him to remount a bike because his desire to remain unscathed was so strong. As a result of his cautious approach to life he has been spared most childhood injuries.

My cautious little Koopa almost made it out of his childhood without sustaining a black eye. Unfortunately yesterday his unscathed streak came to an end in the most unfortunate (and slightly comical) incident. While Robby was in class I decided to surprise him with lunch from Chick Fil A.  He saw the bag of food on the car seat as he approached and crouched down to see what was inside. Simultaneously he swung the door open in the anticipated triumph of conquering the waffle fry. He swung the door directly into the side of his face. 

Watching it play out I immediately knew that he was hurt. It turns out that he gave himself a black eye and a gnarly gash on his cheek. He knocked himself out for some chicken and fries.

 

Craft Fair Success

This past weekend was spent helping Robby selling FlexyFriends at a local craft fair. We have never been to this particular craft fair so we didn't know what to expect. When he registered we were hoping that craft fair shoppers would be the perfect audience for his colorful little toys but there was no guarantee. Regardless we figured it would be a fun experience and I was looking forward to spending some time with him so I happily agreed to spend the weekend at the fair. 

The show opened at 9 am on Saturday and we were gobsmacked by the rush of customers to our little booth. We went with over 60 dragons and we were sold out by 1. It was chaotic, insane and wonderful all at the same time. With every sale I could feel the rising enthusiasm for the success of his little venture.  

Sunday morning we were met at our booth 20 minutes before the show opened by a repeat customer eager to snag more dragons while they were in stock. Our modest attempt at restocking was completely depleted within 15 minutes of the show officially opening. Robby and I spent the day just shaking our heads, astounded by the enthusiasm that his little 3d prints were being purchased. 

It is going to be hard to get everybody refocused for the week ahead after the excitement at the craft fair. Robby is definitely walking into the coming week on cloud 9.

Tires

 Last night we were going to decorate the Christmas tree but we decided it would be more fun to buy new tires. Okay, fun may be a bit of a stretch because purchasing tires is never an enjoyable experience. Unfortunately Scott left work yesterday afternoon and discovered a huge tack protruding out of the side of his front tire. Decorating the tree would have been more fun but buying and installing two tires was far more necessary. 

Hopefully we will get the tree decorated tonight or at the very least by tomorrow night. This evening after work we are heading to set up for a local craft fair. Robby and I will be spending the weekend at the Holidays in Leesburg craft fair selling FlexyFriends and assorted ornaments. We have no idea what to expect so this is a new adventure for both of us.  

This Christmas season is definitely unique. Instead of spending my weekends baking cookies and decorating I am going to be sitting in a mall or at a craft show assisting Robby with his little pop-up store. Next year Robby will be leaving for college so I'm trying to look at my busy weekends as an opportunity to spend a lot of time with him. I'm going to be stuck there anyway so I might as well look at the positive!

Rainbows

Our tree is upright but it remains undecorated because I was just too tired last night. I'm hoping that tonight I'll be able to cover it with my twinkly lights. I love the colorful glow that lights up my living room throughout the holiday season. It is hard to feel sad when you are immersed in a rainbow!

It may not be looking like Christmas but it certainly is feeling like it. The chill in the air came from out of nowhere, leaving frost and light snow fluttering down. There is no doubt that winter is here and, if the meteorologists are correct, it is going to be a fun one. After nearly a decade without a significant snowstorm we are all hankering for some sled worthy snow.

Today I plan on spreading Christmas through my house. We only have a month before the big day. I'm way behind!

Tree

As anticipated yesterday was busy and chaotic. After nearly a week of vacation, the boys found it difficult to harness the motivation to return to the grind. I can't say I blame them. I find concentrating throughout the month of December to be difficult. I suppose I resemble a puppy looking at a squirrel when I see twinkly Christmas lights.

After school I had the boys help put up our Christmas tree. Unlike every other year, we did not cut it down ourselves. Last year the experience was beyond miserable because of the endless complaining and bickering.  By the time the tree was felled and dragged to the baler I swore I would never cut down a Christmas tree again. I meant it!

While I told them that I ordered a Christmas tree online, I don't think that they believed me until FedEx drop up with a 9' box.  I've never done a mail order live cut Christmas tree but I am a fan of the experience. The shape, color, fullness and aroma are all amazing. I am a little disappointed in the height (or lack of it) because I am accustomed to 12' trees. By comparison, 7' feels tiny. 

Today the tree will be lit and decorated. It is beginning to feel (and smell) a lot like Christmas!

Pop-Up Shop

Thanksgiving flew by in a moment. I had an amazing holiday week at my Mom's house. I thoroughly enjoyed just hanging out and helping her get ready for the Thanksgiving party. We were busy and it was chaotic, but it certainly wouldn't feel like the holidays if everything were calm and quiet. 

For the first time since Covid my Mom hosted the entire family. It was wonderful to see all of my cousins again. I hate that it has been so long! Timmy was particularly enthralled by meeting his cousin who is also 9. (They had met previously but it was too long ago for memories to have been formed.) The pair sat around their own little table for dinner and happily chatted about McDonalds and french fries. He was delighted to have a "secret cousin" who is his age and who also shares his love for all things potato. 

After Thanksgiving our attention turned to FlexyFriends. Scott and I spent Black Friday at the Francis Scott Key Mall selling FlexyFriends at our little pop-up shop. On Saturday Scott retrieved the kids from my Mom and returned to Virginia to get them settled while I stayed at the shop. On Sunday I worked the shop by myself. It was a little difficult packing everything up by myself but I got it done!

Today everybody returns to their normal schedule. After a week of fun and family adventures, it is going to be hard to get back into the routine. Have a great week!

 I love these kids!  Thanksgiving week has been a fun so far. We've played games, laughed late into the night and went to paint pottery.

Thanksgiving Ready

 I thoroughly enjoyed my last weekend off. The next four weeks we are floating a packed calendar, with FlexyFriend pop-up sales events scheduled throughout the area. For the past few years I have avoided malls during the holidays, but this year I will be parked in the center of one for most of the holiday season. Talk about a change!

Our first Flexy shop is scheduled for this coming weekend. We are exceedingly excited about selling at the Francis Scott Key Mall throughout Black Friday weekend. I hope that this event kick starts our holiday shopping (and selling) season.  I am a little weary about navigating the crowds but I am also looking forward to fully embracing the holiday chaos and hustle. 

But before we go into sales mode we get to enjoy Thanksgiving. Today I am packing up the boys and heading to PA. I'm looking forward to hanging out with my Mom and sister for the next few days. I know that Timmy and Robby are looking forward to seeing their cousins. The next few days will be loud, busy and hectic. In other words, it is going to be wonderful!

This truly is the most wonderful time of year.

Tree Struggles

 Happy Friday!  

Even though we didn't do anything out of the norm, this week has felt wonky and off. Thanksgiving vacation is definitely at the forefront of all of our minds and the excitement is building with each passing day. Timmy is ecstatic to go to his Nana's and to hang out with his cousins next week and Robby is looking forward to several late-night rousing rounds of Cards Against Humanity. I'm counting down the days until our Thanksgiving "Fun"cation begins!

Unlike other years, I'm not taking the Cousins overnight this year. Instead I have several day adventures partially planned and I will be able to tailor our itinerary when I know their work schedules. No matter what we do, I know that we will have fun.

Unfortunately, our funcation is still a few days away. I need to get through work today and Monday before the fun really begins. This weekend I am going to prep for Christmas because our tree is begin delivered the following Monday. This is the first year that we are not picking out our own tree in a field, but sometimes traditions need to change or end. Last year the boys (Scott included) all complained relentlessly throughout the tree farm experience and I swore I would never do it again.

Cutting down a Christmas tree has been my childhood tradition that I brought to my own little family. When they were really little both boys loved going to chop down the tree. As they have grown the dirt, sap, needle stabs and muscle exertion have outweighed the joys. Last year their bickering reached fevered pitch when they were struggling to bring the ginormous tree up the hill to the processing barn. By the time the tree reached the barn, I was nearly in tears and everybody was miserable. 

Getting into the car I declared that we would never do it again. That doesn't mean that I don't want a beautiful freshly cut Christmas tree. I discovered the best of both worlds. A Christmas tree farm in Massachusetts that delivers throughout the country. Straight from the farm to my door- I think this is going to be the perfect compromise!

Emergency Doughnut

 Yikes!

Despite having my countdown snowman out and happily illuminating the days until Christmas since September, I find Thanksgiving sneaking up on me. I can't believe Turkey Day is next week! The past few weeks have flown by and feel like a whirl. Between work, school projects and creating and selling FlexyFriends, my days have been busy and there hasn't been a lot of downtime. I have a feeling that trend will continue through the season. 

I had wanted to participate in the "Grateful Challenge" but I lost track of time. Sigh. Oh well. I guess it isn't too late to get started.

Today I'm grateful that the boys have settled into their school routines. Timmy now needs very little assistance and intervention from me during the day. With the exception of helping him locate some last minute supplies, he is logged in and interacting with his classmates during school.  The fact that I no longer need to sit next to him has been liberating!

On Tuesday I was getting him ready for school when I realized that he had colorful sprinkles embedded in the back of his hair. It looked like a colorful rat nest. Brushing his hair, I had to ask him how he got sprinkles in the mix. He looked at me with the straightest face and simply answered, "Oh, I had an accident and fell asleep in my emergency doughnut."

Emergency doughnut? 

This child is definitely my son!

 

20 years

 Over the weekend I celebrated my 20th Walking Day. Our celebrations this year were muted because we were at the mall selling FlexyFriends, but I did take some time to reflect upon how far I have come in those two decades. Out of all of the anniversaries and dates involved with my limb loss, Walking Day is my favorite because it celebrates a triumph rather than marking something that happened to me. 

Two decades ago I never would have imagined that I would be where I am today. I remember feeling so uncertain and scared that my amputated body would always feel foreign and uncomfortable. I was promised that it would become my new norm, but I don't think I really believed the sentiment.  

Two decades have passed and I can say that living as an amputee has become my normal. I am not saying that it is always easy. Nor am I saying that I don't have frustrations where I am either in pain or limited because of a prosthetic issue. But I am saying that I don't think about being an amputee throughout the day. When I first had my amputation, I was scared that what was cut off of me would somehow become my identity. 

I am more than my amputation. But I am the person I am today because of everything that I have gone through. Being an amputee has become part of who I am, but it does not define me. If you are new to limb loss, please know that it won't define you either.

Pop-Up Shop

I never imagined that it would be so enjoyable to sit inside a mall for three consecutive days, but I was pleasantly surprised by the experience. Not only was the FlexyFriends pop-up store successful, but I had a great time interacting with all of the wonderful families who stopped by to shop. Santa arrived at the mall on Saturday which definitely helped with foot traffic. Robby and I were busy all day!

Because our event was spread out over three days, we decided to divide and conquer. Scott went with me to help me set up on Friday but I finished out the day by myself because he needed to get home to take care of the Timmy. On Saturday Robby spent the day with me selling while Scott stayed home. On Sunday they switched and Robby stayed home with Timmy while Scott went to the mall to help me sell and clean up. As an added bonus, my sister made a surprise trip down to spend a few hours and help out on Sunday. It was wonderful to be able to spend a few hours hanging out, selling and chatting.  

After a busy weekend, I feel a bit frazzled starting the new week. I haven't had a chance to decompress and my at home to-do list is overwhelming.  Ready or not, I guess I need to get started working.

Have a great day!

Off to Sell

After a wonderful family fun day, it was a little difficult to get back into the 'thinking zone' yesterday. The prospect of a three-day weekend was enough to push us all through the final hours of the day. In the afternoon I was able to watch Timmy's presentation to his class, which was adorable! 

Today Robby and I are packing up and heading to the mall in Frederick Maryland to sell FlexyFriends. We have been printing nonstop for months because we have a table booked for the entire weekend. (We are also going to be there Black Friday weekend, so if you are in the area stop by!) I'm nervous but excited about this challenge. 

Wish us luck!

DC Adventures

 We had an amazing day yesterday!

Unlike most of our adventures, everything actually went as planned.  Metro was easy to navigate and we lucked out by getting into one of the new cars. The weather was absolutely gorgeous. It was 75 and sunny with no humidity and no bugs. We picked the perfect day for our autumnal family adventure.

We were able to see the pandas clearly and say goodbye. I recognize that I was probably more determined to see them before they left, but the kids and Scott happily obliged. Once we explained to Timmy that the pandas were leaving for China next week and that they, in all probability, would never return to the US, he was duly impressed.  

As it turns out, it was announced early this morning that the pandas will be departing for China today, not next week. We saw the pandas on the very last day possible! Talk about being lucky and cutting it close. (I do want to share that the National Zoo now requires passes, which we did not know when we arrived yesterday morning. The passes are free and relatively easy to obtain online, but on days when the zoo is busy admission might be staggered. If you are going to the National Zoo anytime soon, be sure to claim your pass ahead of time to save some heartache and trouble at the gate.)

After the zoo we got lunch and headed back to the metro to head deeper into the city. I booked an electric cart tour of the monuments. Talk about a good time! The boys were delighted to sit backwards on the cart as we zoomed through the city, listening to our tour guide and exploring the monuments and the history of DC. Our tour guide was a retired history professor who provided wonderful insights into the stories of the city. Our two hour tour ended up being extended to more than three hours. 

Last night I helped Timmy put together a video to share with his class.  Enjoy!

Election Day Fun

 Happy Election Day!

Because it is Election Day Scott has off work because his school is used as a polling location. It is the perfect opportunity for us to take the boys into DC to look at some sites and some pandas. The weather is absolutely gorgeous! They are calling for a high around 70 with bright blue skies so I don't think we could have asked for a better day to escape and play in the city.

Hopefully my leg is up to the task. I've been keeping my walking to a minimum since last week. The sore is healed and my limb feels strong, but I also recognize that I am still in a rather precarious situation. I'm going to bring all of my supplies with me should there be a fitting mishap on our adventure, but I'm really hoping that my socket cooperates today. 

I anticipate a lot of walking!

Healed

I spent this weekend on the couch with my leg off, watching Christmas movies and working on my computer. To Friend's dismay, I kept my walking to a minimum. We did not enjoy meandering strolls through our neighborhood despite his happy wagging tail. The weather was gorgeous and it would have been wonderful to spend more time outside playing, but I needed my leg to heal more than I wanted to enjoy the weather. 

I did put my leg on to take Robby to his Homecoming dance on Saturday night. This year the students opted for an informal event, so he was able to attend in jeans and a nice shirt. (He was delighted with the relaxed dress code!) He had a fabulous time and was all smiles when he came home.

Time has worked its magic and my leg sore is healed over. I'm keeping a blister band-aid applied to provide some extra protection and comfort, but my skin is healing nicely. Even though I'm not feeling any pain I'm going to lean towards caution today and keep my walking and leg wearing to a minimum. Tomorrow we have a big family adventure planned and I will need all of my ambulatory abilities.

Tomorrow is election day and Scott has off work. We decided that it was the perfect day to take the boys to the zoo. The pandas are leaving for China next week and aren't expected to return -possibly within my lifetime. (Before you hit compose to send me an email about the kids missing school, know that Timmy's teachers were ecstatic about our zoo trip.  He is going to prepare a presentation to share with his class.)

We are going to have fun tomorrow but we have to get through today first. Happy Monday!

 

This Sucks

 Just when I thought I had developed a system to remain mobile a skin sore has developed which has rendered me unable to wear my leg. I'm so frustrated I could scream, but that would only result in upsetting the dog and hurting my throat. Instead, I'm going to keep my leg off, keep busy and watch Christmas movies whenever I become sad. (I have a feeling the movies will be streaming nonstop this weekend.)

I developed a penny sized blister on the back of my calf. The position of the sore creates a significant amount of pain whenever I don my socket. By mid afternoon I was using a crutch to keep the pressure to a minimum. By the time the sun set I had completely abandoned my leg and resigned myself to crutches for the night. 

As much as I despise doing it, I am going to forgo wearing my leg for the entire weekend. My leg really needs to heal and it won't if I continue to aggravate the sore with my prosthesis. Sometimes being an amputee really sucks and today is one of those days!

Taco Timmy

 It was chillier than anticipated, but the crisp air wasn't enough to keep my little trick-or-treaters from their appointed mission. Throughout the day Timmy was practically counting down the minutes until it was time to hit the streets. Scott came home from work and immediately called up Google Maps to prepare the most efficient and fruitful route. It is safe to say that taking lead on Halloween means as much to Scott as it does Timmy.  

Finally, the moment arrived! Bundled up and ready to go, Timmy and Scott took off on the scooter in search of treats and surprises. Once they drove away, Robby and I hopped in the car and headed out for hibachi. Unfortunately, our solo table streak came to an end but dinner was great and we had a fabulous time.  

Timmy and Scott came home from trick-or-treating both thrilled and freezing. They had a great time and Timmy spent the evening recounting all of his adventures and detailing his favorite houses and decorations. The candy loot was admired, organized, weighed and partially devoured before everybody finally went to sleep for the night. 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

 If you ask Timmy, today is the most wonderful day of the year. Like most children, he utterly adores Halloween and all things spooky. With his newly discovered love of candy, I think trick-or-treating will become a serious endeavor tonight. Alas, Scott is up to the challenge.  His scooter has a full tank of gas because he has been excited about taking Timmy around the neighborhood on his annual candy quest.

While Timmy is busy scouring the neighborhood for candy and treats, Robby and I are going to head out for a hibachi dinner. This has become our special tradition since we inadvertently discovered that the restaurant is very quiet on Halloween. For the past two years we have had the whole hibachi table to ourselves. Here's hoping the tradition continues this year!

Photos will post later. Have a wonderful Halloween!

Back at it

 This weekend was busy but fun. It began with us waking up in Pennsylvania at my Mom's house. Originally we were planning to stay for the entire weekend but Robby and his friends ended up organizing a gaming tournament for Saturday evening. So instead of staying we packed up early and headed back to Virginia after lunch on Saturday.

While I was sad to leave my Mom's house early, I have to admit that it was nice to have Sunday at home. I was able to sleep in, watch Christmas movies and work around the house. Looking around it doesn't appear that I did a lot, but it feels like I was busy all day! 

Halloween is Tuesday which means that this week, at least the beginning portion, will be chaotic and full of excitement. Timmy and Scott are already looking through Google maps to plan their trick-or-treat routes. Robby, not to be left out, has already picked out what he is going to order when he and I go out for hibachi after the pair leave on the scooter.

Timmy Taco!

Timmy had a blast Trick-or-Treating last night. I know I am biased, but he is the cutest taco I've ever seen! Robby, opting to dress as a "snarky teen" this year, was a phenomenal big brother and accompanied our little taco through the neighborhood. After all, one of the benefits of having a significantly younger sibling is the ability to extend your trick-or-treat lifespan beyond the typical age barriers.

Today we are just going to hang out with my Mom. I'm kind of looking forward to a low-key day. Things have been so hectic lately. It will be nice to just hang out and chill. 

Unfortunately this visit will be short. Tomorrow I need to go back to Virginia because Robby has plans with friends in the evening. Besides, we will have to get ready for Trick-or-Treat 2.0.

 

Trick-or-Treating

 Everybody seems to be healthy which is good because it is Halloween (season)! 

Despite Halloween occurring next Tuesday, tonight is trick-or-treat night in my Mom's area. I've always tried to take the boys to trick-or-treat in Pennsylvania with their cousins. I love seeing everybody excited and dressed for the holiday (and I know my Mom does as well) and, let's face it, you can't go wrong with double the candy. So, this afternoon we are throwing our schedules out the window and we are heading to Pennsylvania to keep our trick-or-treat tradition alive.  

If having COVID had any benefits, it was that I was afforded the opportunity to keep my leg off and for my limb to completely heal. While my leg is still entirely too large and ill-fitting, I am able to pad enough to be functional and quasi-comfortable. The little blisters that had formed have completely healed and I have resumed my long walks with Friend. If history is any measure, I will put my leg to the test tonight. 

Happy (early) Halloween!

Driving

I was drained by the time I went to bed last night but I made it through the afternoon unscathed. The first full day back after being ill is always the true measure of recovery. I am not operating at 100% but, thankfully, I can still get a lot done puttering along at a manageable 80%. Hopefully each day I will continue to feel better, stronger and with a clearer head. The COVID fog this time was intense!

Although I would have preferred to step back into our routine that was not an option. Robby had his Compass class scheduled and needed to be ferried to and from the school. His enthusiasm and excitement for Compass days definitely helps to buffer any driving frustrations I may feel. Whenever I feel frustrated or frazzled by the drive I actively remind myself that I will miss the time together when he goes to school next year. 

I am waking up this morning feeling even better. By the end of the week I should be back to 100% which is perfect because it will be Halloween weekend! Looking at our yard decorations, it is easy to see that we have dropped the ball this season. I suppose I'll have to make amends with our Christmas decorations.

Feeling Better

 I spent the weekend, and the end of last week for that matter, recovering from COVID. It wasn't a horrible case and, unlike other strains, I did not develop a painful cough or nausea. Instead of coughing and vomiting  I was  exhausted and miserable with a headache. I recognize that our strain was the lesser of two evils, but perfect health would have been preferred.

The end of the week is a blur. I felt like I went through the days with my head in a bottle. I began to feel better on Saturday and by Sunday I was back to my normal self. Despite feeling normal, I decided to take it easy so that my body would have a little longer to recover and to regain some of my strength.

I'm feeling better today and I expect the day to flow normally. I won't have time for a nap so I'm hoping that I am recovered enough to make it through the day intact and functional. Robby has his Compass classes today so I will be ferrying him back and forth to school between my own meetings. Mondays are busy, and today is no exception.

Covid Positive

 Just when I thought I was out of the woods I discover that Scott has gifted me with Covid. I was feeling fine, not fantastic, but manageable until about noon yesterday. Suddenly I developed a debilitating headache and was overwhelmed with exhaustion. After laying down for a few minutes and hoping that it was a fluke I decided to test myself. I felt defeated as the little pink line began to grow across the test strip. 

Today I'm surrendering to feeling ill. Hopefully this will be a mild case. :(

Back to Work

 After nearly a week off of work due to Covid, Scott is returning to the classroom today. Yesterday he was finally feeling better and last night he tested negative, clearing the way for his return. I'm sure that today will be tiring for him because it is always difficult returning after being ill. I'm just really hoping that he doesn't do to much and set himself back.

Somehow we managed to emerge from the Covid infestation with only one victim. I was certain that everybody was going to become ill. I'm not sure how we were spared, but I am certainly not going to look a gift horse in the eye!  

Today will be relatively low-key. Over the past few days I've been researching for a new prosthetist because I'm so tired of being in pain and discomfort when I'm walking. My leg is too big and, despite my best efforts, walking has become dangerous. I'm nervous going to a completely new facility but the lure of comfort is enough to push me out of my comfort zone.  I am so tired of hurting!

Halloween Decorating

I spent the weekend streaming Christmas movies and taking care of Scott. He continues to feel lousy because of his Covid infection. Thankfully he does not have a high fever and he is not violently coughing, but he is is exhausted and managing a constant headache. Hopefully he turns the corner soon because I know he is absolutely miserable!

Because Scott was sick and we didn't want to spread any infections in the community we stayed close to home this weekend. Saturday we were hoping to view the "Ring of Fire" eclipse but were instead treated to (another) rain storm and dreary day. So instead of going to an eclipse party we had milkshakes and cookies at home. 

On Sunday the weather cleared and the ground began to dry. After days of constant rain it was nice to be able to get outside again. Timmy spent his afternoon gleefully decorating for Halloween. We now have skeletons, spiders and assorted creepy props strewn through our yard and in our trees. He definitely upped our spook factor this year. 

While Timmy was all-in on decorating for Halloween, I have my eyes towards Christmas. In an attempt to avoid the news and to keep my home safe for kids, I have started to stream holiday movies instead of CNN. The movies may be predictable and cheesy, but at least I don't have to worry about Timmy walking in on graphic images. 

Scott is off again today and will remain home for the next few days. He has to be symptom free and test negative for Covid before he is permitted to return to work. Hopefully he will turn the corner soon. It would be nice if he could enjoy his required sick days.

 

Television Images

 The decision to stop watching the news was made for me by Timmy.  Last night the news was on and I had to leave the room to help Scott with something.  I didn't have a second thought about walking away from the television and I was gone for about five minutes. I would have been gone for longer but I heard Timmy screaming and I went running to me.

I found him on the couch, staring at the television with horror. I quickly shooed him out of the room, hugged him and tried to get him to tell me what he saw. When it became clear that he wasn't going to be able to completely describe the scene I left him with Robby (Scott is sick) and returned to rewind and watch the segment myself.  

I cannot blame him for screaming! I had no idea that the images that were shown would become increasingly graphic as the night went on. I will spare the graphic details, but I know that Timmy will never forget seeing that murdered little baby.  

My heart broke for him because I know how difficult it will be to process that image. When I was his age I saw a suicide live on television. I was home for a snow day and the government official called a press conference in the middle of the afternoon. I was watching The Price is Right when the show was interrupted for a news conference. About 30 seconds into the conference the man pulled out a gun, put it in his mouth and pulled the trigger. I can still see the reel in my mind.

I know that Timmy will never forget that little baby. He was nearly inconsolable and terribly confused by the war. I am not going to risk him seeing those images going forward, so from now on I'll have to get my news when he is asleep or out of the house.  

Israel

 Yesterday I was paralyzed by the horrific reports emerging from Israel. I knew it would be better for my mental health to turn off the television and to focus on something happier, but doing so felt incredibly disrespectful. I realize it makes absolutely no sense and I am done trying to analyze it. I know from experience that I will stay stuck until I figure out something actionable. When I can focus my devastation towards functional outrage I will be able to disengage from the constant stream of horrible news. 

I have been functioning under a veil of outrage and grief. I am quick to tear and, despite my best efforts, I find myself back in front of the television. I just cannot imagine the terror that is being felt.

The problem is that there is nothing that I can do to help. Like so many others around the world, I feel utterly helpless. I want to reach through the television screen and rescue those little children and mothers, to dry the tears that are falling and to help bandage wounds. Lacking those opportunities, I have made donations to the Red Cross and UN, and I am hugging my kids tighter.

Happy Walks

After the Milky Way Meltdown and the ensuing drama our family is slowly starting to return to normal.  The past few weeks have been littered with schedule changes and random vacation days. This week our schedule is 'normal' which should allow all of us a little breathing room. Too much change inevitably leads to chaos.

The temperatures are cooling which seem to call to Friend throughout the day. He loves chasing the leaves as they flutter along the breeze. I'm still struggling with socket fit but thankfully my limb sores have completely healed. It takes me awhile each morning to perfect the padding for the day but once I do I am (mostly) comfortable.

Being able to resume my longer walks with Friend is something that we are both thoroughly enjoying. Being outside and moving is good for not only my physical health but also for my soul. I am a better mom when I am relaxed and happy, so as far as I'm concerned everybody benefits by my mini-escapes.

Today is a rare day when I don't have to drive anywhere. Nobody has any activities and I don't have any appointments, so I'll be able to stay in my jammy bottoms and comfortable all day. After all, working from home has some benefits!

The Great Milky Way Meltdown

 This weekend was supposed to be Timmy's wish come true. He has been pining to see the Milky Way for several years. On Friday and Saturday the astronomers predicted a celestial show sure to awe. With the Milky Way, Venus, Mars and Saturn all visible and because a meteor shower was also occurring simultaneously, I knew it was the perfect activity for my little stargazer. I secured admission to a stargazing party led by astronomers and former astronauts and I was confident in the knowledge that this was going to be an amazing night. 

The star even has been on our calendar for several months with Timmy counting down daily in anticipation. He was upset on Friday when we woke to rain but was quickly reassured that the event could still proceed on Saturday. We woke up Saturday to beautiful clear skies and I knew it was going to go as planned.

Saturday afternoon we piled into the car and headed into the mountains. After stopping by 7-11 for treats, we settled in for the gorgeous drive along Skyline Drive. The leaves are starting to change and the contrasting colors were breathtaking. By the time we rolled into the parking lot in front of the designated field, dusk was just beginning to settle.

Unfortunately, the only clouds we saw all day were also floating across the horizon. An imposing black cloud settled directly over our field, blocking the view completely. We had gone from visibility to 120 miles to not being able to see the moon above our heads within minutes. 

Devastated does not even come close to expressing the emotions that Timmy felt when we were driving away from the field under the dark clouds. I felt horrible but there was literally nothing I could do to better the situation. If I could have moved the clouds myself I would have without hesitation. \

A weekend that was supposed to overflow with memories and dreams come true was replaced by days of crying and disappointment. At this point, I wish I had not even tried because the disappointment just isn't worth it. I'm sharing two photos from when the trip was exciting and pleasant- hoping that these are the memories that will remain.

Breaking News!

 

Accident

 Yesterday was supposed to be busy with school and work, but it exceeded my expectations. My sweet nephew, who has been driving for less than a year, backed his truck directly into a landscaping trailer which was parked on the opposite curb. Thankfully nobody was injured, the trailer was empty and the accident happened in front of my mother's house. All three of those factors helped to diffuse what was an upsetting situation for him.

I spent a lot of the afternoon trying to convince him that the event is called an accident for a reason. He made a mistake and he can be angry about it, but beating himself up was not going to change the situation. I worked on his mood all day and by the time we were setting the table for dinner he was beginning to smile again. I know that he will continue to reflect and feel upset, but hopefully he will also remember that he deserves the same grace he extends to others. 

Today is exciting because my Mom, sister and I are heading to a Queen concert. Pics to follow!

PA

Yesterday was busy with work and driving, but waking up at my Mom's made it worth the effort.  It's nice to not have to drive anywhere today, because the next few days are going to be just as busy. Today I will be playing catch-up while trying to keep the boys on track with their school. Timmy is rather excited to go to school at his Nana's house, although I think he is hoping she will provide an early escape for him.

Tomorrow my Mom, my sister and I are heading to Baltimore for a Queen concert. I haven't been to a concert with my mom since I saw Tiffany sing when I was in middle school, and I'm not sure I have ever gone to a concert with my sister. I've been wanting to hear Queen live for years and I am so excited for tomorrow!

Of course, I need to get through today before I can even start to think about the concert. It's always a little harder for me to stay on task when I am away from home, but I really don't have a lot of choice today. Hopefully my focus holds!

Lists

 I had hoped to spend the weekend relaxing and working around the house, but it turns out that the Flexy fates had different plans. Instead of sleeping in and tinkering around the house I rose early and hung out at flea markets on Saturday and Sunday. (We heard that the markets were traditionally busy during the end of September and through October because hoards of apple pickers converge in the area each autumn.) Thankfully the weather cooperated and it was gorgeous both mornings, enabling me to enjoy the quiet and cool temperatures. 

This weekend will be anything but typical. Today I am heading up to my mom's after I pick up Robby from school. Timmy and Rob will have to go to school at her house this week which is always a little stressful, but it will be worth it. On Wednesday my mom, my sister and I are heading to a Queen concert. I am so excited!

Because the concert is in the middle of the week I have to upend everybody's schedule in order to make it work. Both boys are fairly flexible and, while it is stressful for me to make sure that all of their supplies are packed, neither one of the boys will really care where they log in. I just have to make sure that I have everything printed and packed that they may need. 

Time to make some lists...

Hooray!

 Hip hip hooray for Friday!

This has been a rough week. Work has been brutal and I feel like I have been pulled in a hundred different directions simultaneously. To add to the frustrations, I always feel a little off center whenever my schedule drastically changes, and this week was no exception. The boys had off school/work on Monday, leaving them with a three day weekend. Having them home on Monday completely messed up my routine and I have been trying to get back on track all week.

Today will be busy working and chauffeuring Robby to and from his classes. He adores his Friday classes which makes the nearly four hours I spend driving tolerable. This evening we will enjoy delivery before everybody will scatter to their own corners of the house for a few hours. Togetherness is great, but sometimes space is heaven sent. 

It is a good thing that my leg is healing because this weekend will be busy. On Saturday Robby and I are heading to a flea market to sell his FlexyFriends. On Sunday Scott and I will head to a different flea market. We are hoping to take full advantage of the leaf peepers who drive through the area on the way to Skyline Drive. With a government shutdown pending, we don't know how long the park will be open. 

We've been encouraged to return to sell in the autumn because of the leaf peepers. Fingers crossed the hype meets our reality!

Researchers

 Yesterday the sun was shining and the temperatures were beautiful. Desperate to escape the house I was able to pad my leg enough to enjoy a few longer walks with Friend. He was delighted to be outside playing again, happily sniffing everything and trying to chase every leaf that is drifting on the breeze. I was hesitant to add him to our family but I can't imagine not having this little pup.

Although I enjoyed being outside with Friend, I spent the majority of my day working on a project and being interviewed by researchers. I don't think I have ever passed up an opportunity to help somebody with their research into limb loss and/or prosthetics. I find the process, the topics and the discussions to be fascinating. Everybody benefits when time is taken to learn about the needs of the amputee community.

My discussion with the researcher yesterday was particularly interesting. The study is focusing on the daily needs and obstacles of the "typical" amputee. I've had researchers focus on just about ever aspect of my life, but I've never had a team so thoroughly delve into my daily activities. They were able to pull back the layers on every little accommodation and adjustment that I made for my prosthetic. I knew that I made adjustments, but it wasn't until they were dissected through this interview that I realized the depths of my accommodations.

If you are interested in meeting with the researchers to share your story, send me your email and I'll make the introductions.