Yesterday I woke up and I knew that it was going to be a rough day. My heart was racing and my nerves were jumpy before I even slipped on my leg. I tried to remain even and calm but within minutes I accepted that I was going to spend the day battling my anxiety.
What am I anxious about? Everything and nothing. It is so hard to explain, but it felt like the day was one perpetual jump scare. I meditated, stayed busy, cried, baked and meditated again. Nothing alleviated the anxiety, but the fact that I made it through the day without any hiccups to my family or my work is a miracle.
Today I'm still feeling jumpy but I can also sense that I'm gaining control over the emotion. The weather is supposed to be gorgeous, so I'm optimistic that some walks in the sunshine will help. Yesterday wasn't the best day, but hopefully today will be better.
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