Yesterday I received confirmation of news that, to be completely honest, I knew but had been trying desperately to forget. Despite being active and mobile, my limb is not faring well. My fears have been affirmed, and I am going to have to have a major revision surgery in the coming months.
It turns out that I have a trinity of
stump issues. I have a bone spur, a failed skin flap, and a splintering
distal tip. Apparently I like to do everything, including developing
limb issues, in a zealous fashion!
Repairing the distal
tip will be the most invasive procedure, requiring the removal of bone
and reassembly of the bone bridge. In essence I will be undergoing a
re-amputation. An amputation is definitely not an experience I am
excited to repeat.
True to Murphy's Law, the bone spur
is not located close to the distal end of my limb. Shaving it down will
require another significant incision. Pretty soon my stump will be
nothing but a series of scars.
While I am not happy
about the prospect of surgery, I know that it needs to be done, and I've
started the process of approval with my insurance adjustor. I have no
doubt that I will be required to appear in court and navigate through
another sea of useless red tape and heartless denials. Trying to obtain
approval will end up being as painful and frustrating as recovering from
the surgery itself.
I am saddened that I'm facing another
revision surgery, but right now I don't feel overwhelmed. I suspect
that I am not worried because I know that the process of approval will
take months. Although I know that I need the surgery now, in reality it
will probably not occur until August or September. I'll worry about the
pain and recovery when I have approval and a surgery date. Until then, I
think I'll just try to forget and enjoy my summer.