For the past few months I have been podcasting with a fellow amputee. Although I think that our discussions are both enlightening and entertaining, I have been hesitant to promote the venture because of one small issue: I absolutely hate the way my voice sounds on recordings. As it turns out, I am much more comfortable hiding behind a keyboard!
I am moving outside of my comfort zone, and although I'm uncomfortable,
I also realize that I can't hide from opportunities because of my fear.
Earlier this week I was invited to be a guest panelist on the Diane
Rehm radio show (syndicated nationally through NPR). Although I was
thrilled by the invitation, it's safe to say that I haven't slept well
since the plans were solidified.
I have done numerous television
and print interviews over the years. Although I always feel a surge of
anxiety when meeting with a reporter, I have always been able to rally
and squelch my fears. Today is my inaugural radio interview, and the new
format has thrown me for a loop!
I know how to tell my story and
how to speak effectively to topics impacting the community. I am
passionate about the topic of today's broadcast (prosthetic technology
and its availability to the civilian population), and I know that I am
both experienced and well-versed with the details. I don't doubt my
competence, but I do worry that I'll become nervous and tongue-tied as
soon as the broadcast starts.
The way I sound resides at the top
of my worry list for today. I've been promised that my own negative
perceptions of my own voice are not echoed by others. Despite hearing
these reassurances, I have spent the past few days trying to improve my
sound. Unfortunately I have only managed to uncover an uncanny ability
to speak like a cross between Daisy Duck and Porky Pig, with an accent
that has never been identified by a linguist.
At the urging of
my family and friends, probably because they are tired of my calling
them in order to practice my refined dialect, I am waving the white flag
when it comes to the way my voice sounds. I am going to have enough
anxiety making sure that I communicate effectively. Although it would
probably be wildly entertaining, trying to add "change my voice" to the
list of things remember during the interview is a recipe for disaster!
excited about the opportunity to represent the civilian amputee
population. The show is being broadcast live at 11:00 today on NPR
stations nationwide and I hope that you can tune in and cheer me on.
Wish me luck!