Yesterday
was both emotionally and physically draining. As I was falling into bed
at night, I realized that I am not used to being so busy! I was moving
from the moment I woke up until I fell asleep, juggling a day full of
with meetings, appointments and the boys.
Although I
was physically tired, I have no doubt that much of my exhaustion stemmed
from emotions. I went to the oncologist (I still hate writing that
phrase) and we finally developed a plan. My next surgery is scheduled
for August 21. While I am not thrilled with the prospect of being cut
open again, I am relieved to finally have a firm date. I feel like I
have been living in a health limbo for months. It is empowering to
finally take action, even when the action isn't pleasant.
I
feel overwhelmed when I think about the surgery and recovery, so I am
resorting to my tried and true adaptation technique. I am ignoring it. I
am going to try to focus on having fun during the next two weeks and
pack a summer's worth of adventures into a few short days. I will have
plenty of time to fret and worry while I am recovering. In the meantime,
I have no intention of wasting any more of my summer.
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