I had trouble falling asleep last night. About an hour before bedtime, I developed an overwhelming sense of foreboding. I tried to shake it off and ignore to little avail. After tossing and turning for awhile, I finally drifted to sleep.
I woke up at midnight with a ominous feeling, like in that moment everything had changed. I tried to rationalize the feeling by convincing myself that I was just exhausted. Although I did fall back to sleep, I wasn't surprised when the telephone rang and hour later.
My Dad had just passed away.
I am writing this at 2 AM, about an hour after receiving the call. I suppose that there isn't really anything for me to do at the moment. I can't sleep, but I suppose I should try. I know that the day that lies ahead will be long with phone calls and arrangements.
It is odd that, in this moment only removed one hour from the news, I feel numb instead of pain and grief. I know the gravity of this loss will be felt fully and deeply in the coming days, weeks and months. Even though I was anticipating this moment, it feels surreal.
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I'm so sorry for the loss of your father. Even when you think you are expecting it, it's never easy to be fully prepared for this. I'm hugging you from afar and keeping you and family in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI understand your feelings as I just experienced that middle of the night call two months ago when my mom passed away. It's expected but it really never is and the reality is so very difficult. My thoughts and condolences to you and your family. We miss our parents forever.
ReplyDeletePeggy, you were so there for your Dad and I know he and Jeanette appreciated it. Jerry loved all of you so much, and he often talked to me about how proud he was of you because of how much you accomplished despite the obstacles put in your way.
ReplyDeleteMany people loved him. So many of us will miss him. So many of us are better persons for knowing him. Life will go on, but it will not be the same without him. Mike Coulson