Robby has inherited many traits from me, among them being the love of being in the water. While I would never categorize myself as a swimmer, mainly because I don't enjoy swimming laps, I can spend hours playing and splashing. Like me, Robby is a water bug and simply adores playing in the pool.
After the pool fiasco of last summer, I decided to
abandon my dreams of pool ownership, instead opting for a membership to
our local community pool. We joined last week, and I can already tell
that it was money well spent. Robby and I have gone to the pool every
day and we have been having a blast.
Although I knew that we
would enjoy going to the community pool, I was hesitant about joining. I
am accustomed to the stares I receive when I'm wearing shorts. When I'm
in a bathing suit, it feels like the gawking is magnified. I realize
that much of this perception is the result of my own insecurities.
Sitting objectively, I probably do not receive more glances than I do
when I'm fully dressed. However, it was difficult to garner the courage
to reveal myself in a swimsuit.
I continue to feel a surge of
nervous energy each time I slip off my swimsuit cover, but it is
becoming easier. It is oddly comforting to know that people are more
shocked by my carbon fiber water prosthesis than the jiggle in my thighs
and bum. Believing that they are staring at my leg instead of my body
shape makes the experience less personal. It's odd that I can strut
around with a cyborg-looking leg with full confidence yet I am flooded
with insecurities and self-doubt when revealing my biological body.
body image insecurities dissolve as soon as I slip into the pool. I
suppose I feel concealed by the water, allowing me once again to be
comfortable in my own skin. Once we are both submerged, Robby and I
spend hours playing tag, going up and down the slides and engaging in
his favorite pool activity--"Toss a Robby." Each afternoon I have been
in awe of his seemingly never ending supply of energy! By the time we
climb out of the pool, we are typically exhausted and famished.
still wish that we had our own pool, but joining the community pool has
turned out to be a fantastic decision. I have no doubts that we will be
utilizing our passes on a daily basis. Maybe with all the exercise I'm
getting by playing in the pool with Robby, I'll eventually become more
comfortable with how I look in a swimsuit!