I woke up feeling good and excited for the day. After slurping down some coffee while walking Friend I came inside to check my email and social profiles. My heart sank when I read of the suicide of an amputee friend. Although I did not know her personally I have been trying to support and mentor her since her amputation nearly four years ago. The news of her suicide left me feeling gutted.
Logically I know that I am not responsible, but I cannot help but reflect and wonder if I should have done things differently. I knew that she was struggling a few months ago but everything seemed to have calmed down. She recently received a new prosthesis and my last messages with her were positive.
But obviously everything wasn't okay because now she is gone. Her daughters are left without their mother and a husband is left mourning his wife. I don't understand the depths of despair that she must have been feeling to take such a drastic and catastrophic step. My heart is breaking. I feel guilty even though I know I didn't do anything wrong.
I just don't understand.
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