Last week I struggled emotionally. I found myself stuck in my own spiraling thoughts as I attempted to weave through nearly 2 decades of friendship to determine if it was built upon truth or manipulation. I tried to stop overthinking but I just got caught in the cycle of remembering, analyzing, and wondering. Has this ever happened to you?
It is terribly painful to realize that a friendship that you have valued may not be perceived with the same esteem by your friend. Overvaluing a friendship is one thing. But feeling like it may have been ultimately all a manipulation is something else entirely. Let me tell you, this one really hurts.
On Saturday, overwhelmed by all of the feelings and emotions in my head, I did what I knew would help to recenter me. I went to visit my Mom. No matter how old I get, her hugs and her presence always recenter me. It was a quick getaway, just one night because Scott has to resume cardio rehab this morning, but it was enough for me to feel normal, or at least as normal as possible again.
Here's to a better week for everybody!
