A Difficult Day

Those who know me realize the importance of my Mom in my life. She is my biggest cheerleader, my steadfast advocate, and my source of inspiration and strength. I know that whatever life throws my way, she will always be there to love me, to offer guidance, and to support me. I would not be the person I am today if it were not for her.


Today is a difficult day for our family. I will be driving my Mom to the hospital where she will undergo a double knee replacement. The surgery has me nervous, but I know that the pain in her joints has been debilitating. She rarely complains, so when she favors her knees, I know that she is suffering. She deserves to be pain free, and replacing her knee is the only option.


I know that when she wakes up she will be experiencing intense pain. I wish that I could take it away for her, but all I'm going to be able to do is hold her hand, fetch her pain medication, and try to keep her as comfortable as possible. I'll be taking care of her dogs while she is in the hospital and the rehab facility, but I wish I could do more.


I'm accustomed to being on the gurney. I am rarely the person nervously waiting for the surgeon to emerge with information. This perspective on surgery is foreign!


I know that my Mom will come through the double knee replacement with flying colors. She's strong in body and spirit. That being said, I also know that her recovery will be both painful and laborious.


The truth is, I'm scared for her. I'm not worried about something going array. I feel helpless because I know that there is little I will be able to for her. It's horrible when somebody who is so strong is in pain!

Please keep my Mom in your thoughts today. I'll post updates when I have information.