Every morning for the past week I have been pushing past the pain to don my liner. Yesterday it took four attempts, and I was in tears by the time it was rolled into place. It would be easy to avoid wearing the liner and leg, but I fear avoidance will only delay my walking again. At this point I am feeling desperate to regain my independence!
know it has only been five weeks, but I am shocked at the persistent
pain. Straightening my leg, putting on my liner and trying to wear the
prosthesis all result in a sharp soreness which stops me in my tracks.
In the past I have been able to push beyond the pain, but this time it
is more intense. I feel stymied, and frustrated.
donning my liner led to my decision to keep my leg off for the day. I
figured that my limb was angry and needed time to calm down. I kept the
liner on because I wanted the compression, and also because I knew that
it was going to hurt trying to peel it off. According to Robby I
activated my "suck it up" mode and kept the liner in place.
in the afternoon my limb pain intensified, motivating me to remove the
liner and ice everything down. I was shocked when I looked at my bare
leg. It was grotesquely swollen and discolored in places. Pressing on
the tissue left deep dimples from the tip up to the bottom of my knee
cap. Obviously, something was wrong! I snapped a picture and sent it to Elliot for his input.
spent the remainder of the day and evening icing down my leg and hoping
that the swelling would leave. Elliot, who is friends with my surgeon,
shared my photo and called me a few hours later. The pair suspects that I
tore part of the muscle flap. During the surgery the surgeon drilled
several small holes in the tip of my bone. He then threaded the muscle
tissue through the drill holes, creating a secure distal tip. They think
that part of the muscle tore away from the bone, probably when I was
trying to wear the prosthesis. No wonder it hurt so much!
this point we don't know the extent of the damage, and we probably won't
for a few days. I have been ordered to stay away from the liner and
leg, to rest, to elevate and to ice the limb. I am officially declaring
this a setback. My only hope is that it is minor, and that I'll be healed and returned to "normal" soon.