Splash

After waking up early and working through lunch, I was eager to log off to play for a few hours. Thankfully the weather was hot and the sun was bright. It didn't take much coaxing (or any at all) to convince Timmy to join me in the pool. 

We played and swam for three hours. I didn't think my little water bug would ever tire, but eventually he agreed to come inside. It turns out he was more hungry than he was tired. After chomping down two cheeseburgers, he was ready to hop back into the pool for an evening swim. 

I think this is going to be an awesome summer!

Summer Break (official)

After a not-so-stellar end to the week, this past weekend was exactly what I needed to recharge and recenter. The weather was hot (finally) and we didn't have rain. We had a great time just splashing and playing in the pool through the afternoon. It felt wonderful to be able to unplug and just have fun in the sunshine with my kids. 

Yesterday was Father's Day, a holiday which always feels awkward since my Dad passed away. I miss him all the time, but his absence feels more profound on holidays and during special events. Even though my heart felt felt twangs of grief throughout the day, I did my best to make Scott feel both special and appreciated.

In the morning I helped Timmy prep a special breakfast for his Daddy. Robby grilled the steaks for dinner and I took everybody out for ice cream for dessert. Scott was showered with gifts, love, attention and affection throughout the day. I hope that he felt appreciated because, although he frustrates me at times, he is an awesome Daddy.

Today is the first official day of the boys summer vacation. Both kiddos finished some lingering projects over the weekend, so they are officially done with school. It is hard to believe that Robby wrapped up his freshman year in high school and Timmy is now a kindergarten graduate. I feel relieved to have survived my first year with dual cyber school students.

With everybody now on summer break, I find myself up early and working in the solitude of a quiet house. I know that the day will become loud and hectic when everybody wakes up. Although I'm not a morning person, being able to knock out a few hours of work before the chaos begins makes rolling out of bed worthwhile.

Frustrating Day, Happy Night

Yesterday I felt like I was chasing my tail and putting out fires all day. All of my plans for the day went sideways, leaving me frazzled and exhausted by evening. I hate days like that! No matter what I did, I felt like it wasn't good enough. Despite all of my efforts to try to get back on track, I felt inadequate. 

The day was miserable, but it ended on a high note. Even though it was not hot, after dinner it was warm enough for Timmy to play in the pool. It was too cold for me, but I thoroughly enjoyed watching him splish and splash. Watching him gleefully play in the pool, I felt my anxiety and frustrations from the day evaporate.

I'm hoping that today is better, because I'm not sure my emotions can handle another day like yesterday. Looking for the positive, the next few days are supposed to be hot. If things continue to go off the rails, I can always take solace in our pool.

Boring

Another cool summer day has come and gone.  I'm fully aware that when the heat finally arrives I will be missing these temperatures. But right now, I really wish it was hot enough to swim. I suppose I should be happy that the rain has stopped. Cool temperatures without rain is a significant improvement. 

Yesterday was relatively low key.  Robby had guitar practice and band practice. I spent the afternoon and evening chauffeuring him to and from his commitments. I wish I had something more exciting to report. 

Who knows, maybe something exciting will happen today?

Farm Adventures

 The rain finally ended, leaving us with soggy ground and cooler temperatures. In other words, no swimming for us (again). Instead of splashing in the pool, we headed to the farm to play and to pick up our CSA weekly haul. 

Even though we weren't swimming, it felt wonderful to disconnect and to be outside for a few hours. My moods are so driven by the weather. After too many consecutive days inside, I begin to feel antsy and sad. Spending the afternoon in the sunshine with the boys was exactly what I needed to recenter.

Thankfully my phantom pain lifted as soon as the rain clouds blew away. Although I was sore and tired, I was able to keep up with my little explorer. A solid night's sleep and I feel like a new woman today. Here's hoping it is a great day!

 

Rainy Day Phantom Pain

 Bleh.  I am so tired of rain. I feel like the universe is laughing at us every time another drop of rain falls into our pool. 

The storms last night were strong enough to bring hail and downed branches. Thankfully only a few leaves fell into the pool. We worried about the water level (again) so I ran out between storms to run the siphon. Who would have thought that having a little above ground pool would be so stressful!

Not only does the rain ruin our pool time, but it is wreaking havoc on my leg. Nights have been plagued by phantom pain, leaving me both groggy and grumpy. I try to not take my phantom frustrations out on the boys, but when I am limping around it is hard to keep smiling.

Hopefully the weather will break. I want to swim, and I want the rain induced pain to go away. This stinks!

Raining

Our weekend weather was absolutely miserable. When it wasn't raining the skies were grey and dark. Much to everybody's disappointment, swimming was out of the question. Instead of splashing we spent the weekend puttering around and playing inside. 

Unfortunately the forecast is not favorable for the rest of the week. The temperatures aren't supposed to rise above 80, and we are supposed to have a mixture of rain and grey skies every day. I'm bummed out that we waited so long for our pool and now the weather is keeping us from using it. 

Since our weather is going to be lousy, I may pack up the boys and head to visit my Mom for a few days this week. Robby is begging to hang out with his cousins and to kick summer fun into high gear. My mom adopted a new dog over the weekend and I'm excited to meet her. (I haven't heard her this happy in a long time!)

Today I am back to our regular summer schedule. Up early for work so I can play in the afternoon. Since we won't be swimming, I may fire up the karaoke machine for an impromptu dance party.